I have always longed for a simpler lifestyle. I want to be home and homeschool my children, and I want to learn to live more off the land. Not completely, I don't want to suffer, but I do want to be more self-sufficient.
In the middle of this desire is Karl. Karl wants to make me happy, but I am not so sure this is his dream. Karl wants the kids to grow up, and to move around following the band phish all year. While an RV lifestyle could definately work for me for awhile, I can't imagine doing it all the time. Can't you just see us as sixty year olds, following osme band around all summer?
Anyway, I am torn. I guess I feel urgent now because of Liam. As soon as he was born, the clock started ticking down to his admission into the public school system. Don't get me wrong-schools do educate. I went to public school, and I am okay. I just want at least one of my children to escape the rat-race that is peer pressure. When a 10 year old is asking for a hundred dollar hair appliance, I think something is wrong. Now, my kids are smart. They don't usually ask for many brand names, except that Taryn has heart set on a pair of Uggs this year. And frankly, there isn't anything wrong with brand names. But, when a child's self-esteem is tied to the name on their sweatshop made tshirt, I have a problem.
I guess I want more for Liam. I don't think putting small children in a room with 20 other small children all day is good for them. I don't. This so called socialization is damaging. I want freedom for Liam. I just have to figure out how to get it and still make all the important people in my life happy.
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